I’m 31 years old, I don’t own a home, I’m not married, and I don’t have a children. Trust me when I say that can be the hardest thing to say out loud (or write down). When I take just a moment to look at how my life has played out thus far, it isn’t at all what I expected. As a teenager I thought I would have it all together by now. I thought I would have a loving husband, home, children running around, but I’m not there yet. I won’t lie, this reality has made me feel down and out many times. I can vividly remember crying and pleading with God to “just reveal my plan already”, I was so sick of waiting. I spent nights scanning the “perfect” social media relationships and found myself envious. What do those women have that I don’t? I hated running into people I hadn’t seen in a while because they always asked the same questions, you know the small talk questions like what do you do, where do you live, where’s your husband, do you have kids? I know these questions have never come from a mean place, but it use to get on my nerves. I would always think to myself how about we talk about all the things that make you feel insecure. Looking back, I can see how silly I was being. I was just so insecure the whole defense mechanism came into play. All along the answer was and still is so simple, I’m just not there yet. It’s taken years for me to be okay with that answer, but my life has drastically changed since I’ve accepted it. The thing is, God knows my hearts desires and will fulfill them in due time. Does that mean I sit back and “let go, let God”… HELL NO! You still have to work hard and take steps in the right direction, nothing is free. However, I have let go of the things that are out of my control. I’m so done questioning myself, because I am more than capable and completely lovable. The things I can control like how hard I work and becoming a better human being has taken the front seat in my life. I started a business from the ground up and that is something to be proud of, and I really am proud. No, I don’t own a home, but I do have a roof over my head. It’s a really precious roof too, I love where I live. No, I’m not married, but I’m being fiercely pursued by God each day and that is enough. No, I don’t have children, but I have two nephews and a niece who think their LuLu is the best. Just because your life isn’t exactly where you thought it would be, doesn’t mean it’s not a great life. When I stopped being envious and started thanking God for all the things I do have, I began to see just how much meaning my life has. Surround yourself with positive people, tell the people you love how you feel, have a drink, and take in every moment! I will forever be grateful for the journey even if I’m just not there yet.
I’ve recently been using the Fenty Beauty Pro Filter foundation by Rihanna and I love it. It comes in a wide range of colors, from the palest to darkest shade. It is a very natural and lightweight makeup, but is buildable for full coverage. I like to apply it with a brush and blend it out with a sponge. It leaves my face with such a smooth texture and my bronzer blends so well. As much as I love this foundation I wouldn’t recommend it for oily skin. I have dry skin and by the end of the day I need to apply more power on my t zone. People who have combination skin could use this foundation, just make sure to set with a loose power. Overall this product is great, I look forward to trying the entire line.
I am a summer time kind of girl and love having glowing skin. One of my favorite things about summer is of course the tan! When I’m tan I like a natural beachy look for makeup. I love rosey sun kissed cheeks and nose, but the sun is so damaging to your skin. I wish I would have started caring about my skin earlier in life, but it’s better to start later than not at all. I always make sure to have sunscreen on my face, so it’s just natural that my face is never as dark as the rest of my body. I have found the solution to this, it’s a face serum call Glo Oil! It’s so simple and easy, I just added a few drops to my normal nightly skin routine. It’s extremely moisturizing, so you could even replace it with your face lotion. When I wake up in the morning it’s like waking up after a long day at the beach, sun kissed! It’s made by Kristin Taylor, owner and operator of Brown Suga Tans. This girl decided to step up the spray tan game and make her very own products. This makes my daily makeup look a dream. I put on my foundation or bb cream depending on the coverage I want, then brush some bronzer over my eyelids and cheeks. Last steps are to coat on the mascara and put on a natural gloss for the lips. The look is simple and could even be used for a night look by adding some false eyelashes. So glad I found this product just in time for summer.
For Glo Oil and other Brown Suga products go to www.brownsugaspraytans.com
Today is International Women’s Day, so it inspired me to write my truth. I am proud to be a self sufficient woman. I do not need a man to “take care” of me, but honestly the desire is there. I am thirty years old, single, never been married, no children. To some women that sounds extremely appealing and exciting , but for me it isn’t. I am a strong woman who desires a strong man by her side. Being in the makeup industry it can become difficult because my job literally revolves around people getting married. People love to say “oh it’s just Gods plan” or my favorite “Gods timing is not always yours”, I totally get that, I’m a Christian. While I believe those things whole heartedly, thanks but, no thanks. Sometimes you just need a person to totally agree with you and say that sucks. Turning thirty was kind of hard for me, I thought to myself, this is not what I thought thirty would look like. I take each day for what it is and constantly try to become a better version of myself. This isn’t a desperate plea for a husband, I refuse to settle. This is just my reality. Honestly, with all the chaos in the world right now, I think a lot of women are scared to speak their truth. In today’s world women are being ridiculed for wanting simple standard things. I believe we should accept each others differences, I’m on your side. Who says I can’t be an extremely powerful woman, but also have a servant heart? Forget gender roles… it’s not about that, it’s about a heart willing to serve a man with his love language. I don’t want the wedding of a lifetime, but the marriage of a lifetime. I am a woman, I am thirty, I am single, l am independent, I desire more, and this is my truth.
I believe we are all beautiful beings, we are made in God’s image, that’s amazing. With all of the hate that is spread across the world these days, I hope that this will give one glimmer of happiness. I encourage all people to be their own beautiful. Whatever version a person finds to be beautiful , rock it. Makeup, no makeup, plastic surgery, all natural, ROCK IT! I personally believe a heart is what makes humans beautiful. A kind heart and soul is a stunning. There isn’t a way to please everyone, someone will always disagree, but that’s what is amazing about “beauty”. It’s not up to everyone, it’s up to you, the eye of the beholder. If you are reading this, I encourage you to love and be kind! Not just today, but whenever you can. What a beautiful place this world would be if we could all learn to agree to disagree.
Laura 💋 #lnhface
I embrace my many different forms!
This post my seem odd, but it’s important to me. I was reluctant, but then I heard the voice of my cousin saying “Laura who cares what people say!” I give tips, tricks, and my opinions on makeup and trends. Today I felt compelled to write about a makeup of a different sort, the makeup of myself. I have been on a journey for a while now to become the best version of myself. During this time there has been a lot of hurt and a lot of happiness. I have made many mistakes during my lifetime and I will never be free from that because I am a human being. We are sinful people and no matter how good we become within ourselves, mistakes will always happen. I use to be a person that dwelled on mistakes and stayed in that place. I never forgave myself or let things go. It took a toll on me, I became so sad. I convinced myself that I was unloveable and a bad person. I let the things people would say about me define me. I was so insecure, sad, and angry. I would relive every single thing that hurt me, keeping it fresh. I never let things go and I was ALWAYS in a defensive mode just ready to strike back. What a terrible way to live, but this was my life. I shut down and closed myself off, never allowed anyone to get too close for the fear of being mocked or hurt. I began to see just what a sad and lonely place I was in. One day, I decided to take charge of my life. I am not kidding when I say that either, I literally woke up one day and told myself “Laura get real, there is so much to be grateful for! You are such a brat!” I was so tired of crying and feeling this way, it was so exhausting! I knew there had to be more to life, there was no way I could live that way forever. I began to throw myself into the bible and my makeup endeavors. I was always a person who believed in God and prayed, but I never had a relationship with God that was life changing. My prayers became more specific and I would thank God for all the good in my life. I began giving my mornings to read the word and journal my thoughts and feelings. I confessed my wrongs and began to accept those wrongs. I FINALLY FORGAVE MYSELF. People make mistakes and it’s ok. I’m telling you things turned around almost immediately. I began to see that I was so worthy. Instead of being defensive I began to see the good in people. Now don’t get me wrong, my feelings still get hurt, I have the softest heart. The thing that’s changed is how I deal with those hurt feelings. Things are simple now, surrounding myself with only the positive things in life. My makeup is also another key to my process. It is something I’m good at, it makes me feel useful. Through makeup I’ve met so many people who are amazing and sweet. I began to see just how many people are rooting for me to succeed! Makeup has always been a passion and dream of mine. I will continue to push the boundaries, there is no limit to my makeup dreams! Thank you to my family and friends for the constant support and loving me through this process. I thought it was important to share my story, because I’m in such a good place now. I know there are many people who struggle with depression or insecurities. I’m just a testimony to let you know that it gets better and everything will be ok! I have officially made over my SOUL, I’m so grateful. ❤️ here’s to a brighter life!